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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

Ode to the boy with diamonds for eyesI think we were a collision course waiting to happen
And when I think back to the day when we first
Stumbled across one another, red sneakers hanging off gutters
Cherry cola voice overs and dilated pupils
We led one another on to believe in the night sky of connect the dot constellations

You wanted to dissect me and peer into the insides of my lungs
Only to find witches breath and dandelions
Slicing iron vowels you locked your hands in mine
And we fell into the static of dreaming disease
The operating table broke away to reveal a sky that never existed
And we couldn't help but laugh at the irony
Because wishing was never an option
The ane

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Lost In ConfusionLost In Confusion

My mind is spinning without a rest
Emotions whirl and twirl around
A merry-go-round gaining speed
Until the world blurrs before my eyes
What's happening? What's going on?

The simplest thought slips away
Right from my mind, fading so fast
Trying to focus, I stare and stare
Until my eyes are heavy and unclear.
I don't understand, what is going on..

Emotions rise and fall again
Within the blink of an eye
I'm crying, laughing, and depressed
A roller-coaster ride that never ends
Am I losing my mind in this?

I try to close my eyes and rest
But the world spins me around
I feel like I am failing this test
Voices and noises echo

Deactivatedthere are voids and black holes
and wounds,
papercuts sinking deep into
finger fissures
only to meet the unmarred love
of bones, strong and
bare and pure.

dark oceans are bleached
into tears that leave nothing
but sea salt in my lips

and my words are injustice
to the death of
your poetry.

this is me
drowning,
trying to be
you

trying to preserve the ardor
of your words
and the honey sweet taste
of your passion

it's also
how my lungs work
(when I don't read something from you
I die more than a little on the inside).

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I love you my dear

by ~RosieDevil123, Jan 22, 2013, 5:00:54 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I don't want a boyfriend who wants me for my body.
I don't want a boyfriend who wants me for my looks.
I don't want a boyfriend who wants me for just sex.

I want a boyfriend who loves me for me.
I want a boyfriend who isn't afraid to tell every one I'm his Girlfriend.
I want a boyfriend who wants to protect me from all the bad in this life.

The boy friend I have though. Isn't like that.
He loves me for my personality and the way I am, he don't care about looks, though I think that helps a bit hehe. He's always making me laugh every time I'm with him, even when I've just been crying and he's been holding me, he always brings a smile to my face by just being himself. He makes all the bad in my life seem like a course I need to skip around. Just needing to bite my tongue and go 'I can do this.' Just so I can be with him once more.

There are days where it's painful because we live so far apart, but we cope with that, we see each other every day. Some times it's for the entire day, and some times there are days were we on spend 1-3 hours with each other. But to us it's worth every minute, and it makes us more hopeful of our future.

He lights up my day every time I see him. Every morning I see him it makes the day seem so much easier to deal with, an the nights we speak and go to bed. I feel better after having those last few minutes of being together for the end of the day.

I love him for his personality. People always give me insults about him, and I'm always thinking ''So what if you hate him? Insult him all you like, your opinions mean nothing to me. He means everything to me.'' And it's true. He does. The thought of losing him is painful, it's terrifying even. He makes me so happy, sure we have our bad times, but don't every couple? Course they do. The fact he stays with me when I lose my temper after I take it out on him, he still loves me and says it's fine, but it hurts me knowing I done so to him. But He still loves me for it. When I'm feeling so beaten down and hurt, he's always trying to perk me up and make me happy again because he knows how to do so.

He's so sweet to me, he makes me laugh in my worst time, he makes me smile through my tears, when I'm hurt he knows and I don't have to say a thing, he'll just hold me in his arms and make that pain fade away.
His voice always calms me. His laugh always makes me giggle, his compliments always make me blush. But him alone makes me feel complete and happy. I wouldn't change anything about him. To me he is perfect.

When we grow older together. I do hope we end up living with each other. I do hope we end up married and love each other for the rest of our lives. Granted loads of people would hear this and think 'They'll just split up in a few months.'' Well. No that's not going to happen, we don't want it to happen. We want to be together, we want to work on making each other happy, we take care of each other, make each other happy, make each other laugh, calm our fears, calm our anger, sooth the aches, rid the madness of the day.

I don't want to lose him. He is my love. He is my boyfriend, my fiance and one day my husband. To me he's my soul mate.
Call my crazy. But I love him.
I love you Zack. I truly do...

I love you my dearby ~RosieDevil123

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I love him so much, This is how he makes me feel

~beyondthegravemind Jan 22, 2013

Q.Q aww hunny that makes me cry, but not in a badway and i lov eyou so much too Emma, I'm sorry i mess up occasionally but i dotn ever want to loose youa dn i love you alot.

~RosieDevil123 Jan 22, 2013 Student Digital Artist

Hehe I didn't mean to make chu cry hun, but I love chu loads to hun, and don't worry I mess up just as much xx

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